Before the scheduled shoot was to take place in La Jolla , Bryan
offered to make arrangements to take me along with him on a trip
he had planned to Hawaii . He told me he was going with or without
me and that he saw it as a chance for him to make things up to me
for the events of the summer. He noted that that I didn’t have
any family in California and had no one to spend the Christmas
holiday with. He also claimed he felt bad that it was likely I
would not receive much of anything for the holiday and that he
wanted to do what he could to avoid me feeling lonely. I had never
been to Hawaii and in all honesty, the prospect of going to Hawaii
was very attractive to me. I just couldn’t help but feel like I
could find better company to go with. On the other hand, I
figured, with the way in which I grew up and the way my parents
struggled to support my brothers and sister and me, I might not
get another chance to see Hawaii for a long time (if ever). I
figured it was likely I would end up spending my life time like my
parent’s spent theirs: just struggling to get by month to month.
在LJ的拍摄日程之前,Bryan提议带我去夏威夷,这趟行程是他早就计划好
的,他告诉我无论我去不去他都会去。他认为这是弥补之前夏天他对我的恶
劣行为的一次机会。他说,我在加州没有亲人,也没有人跟我一起过圣诞节
。他还信誓旦旦的说,如果这个假期我过得不好他也会很难过,他想要为我
做一切得事情以避免我感到孤独。我从来没有去过夏威夷,而且诚实的说,
前往夏威夷这一想法的确非常吸引我。我不禁想要找个更好的人一起去。可
是另一方面,想到我长大的过程和我的父母辛苦养育兄弟姐妹还有我的经历
,我认为可能不会再有机会能去夏威夷旅游了(其实以前也没有机会)。我
想到自己很有可能会像我父母一样过完一生:一天天为生计而挣扎。
Before the trip was booked I made it plain and clear to Bryan : we
were traveling as FRIENDS and that I was merely giving him the
opportunity to fix things between us. I’m a firm believer in a
second chance because I understand that we all make mistakes. Most
importantly; we all make bad decisions. If anyone should
understand that, it’s me.
在行程确定前,我向Bryan直白清晰地表明:我们是作为【朋友】一起旅行
,我给他这个机会,只是为了修补我们之间的一些龃龉。我坚信人们应该获
得第二次机会,因为我知道是人都会犯错误。最重要的是,人们都容易做出
错误的决定。如果有人应该明白这个道理,那就是我。
I insisted to Bryan that he booked a room with TWO BEDS. One for
him to sleep in . and One for me. Upon arrival in Maui I find a
room with ONE BED.
我坚持让Bryab订个有两张床的房间,他睡一张,我睡一张。但在抵达毛伊岛,我发现房间里只有一张床。
