holding hands, and he remembers thinking that was one of the most perfect moments in his life. He woke up to her cell phone ringing. She sleeps like the dead so she didn't hear it, but when he glanced over at the screen it was Nate's name flashing across. She'd put him in as 'Natie' and that little endearment made him sick. Mostly, because she'd never used it in front of Dan. It was like it was their little secret, and Dan was kicked out of their private club. He hadn't answered it, and when she'd woken up later he'd pretended he didn't see the little smile that passed over her lips when she saw her missed call. She liked Nate's attention; she reveled in it.
Tonight they're all going out to dinner. Blair has planned this thing all out, and Serena insisted they attend. He secretly believes she's using this as an excuse to see Nate. He's been torturing himself about the seating arrangements all day. She'll end up beside Nate. He knows she will. She'll laugh at his jokes, she'll touch his arm casually, and Dan will pretend not to notice. But he'll see it, he'll see it all, and so will everyone else at the table.
Vanessa will be there. She's drowning in her Nate love right now. Dan thinks she's fortunate that she doesn't see what he sees. Vanessa has a nack for looking away at the right minute and avoiding those moments that torment Dan. Serena pretends like she's okay with Vanessa. She makes idol chit chat, and smiles, and acts like everything is fine. But Dan can tell it's only on the surface, beneath the façade Serena has a very big problem with Vanessa – namely that she's dating Nate. Dan hates to think it, and prays he's wrong, but he believes Serena is jealous that for once all of Nate's affection isn't focused on her.
Dinner is awkward. Blair and Chuck arrive arguing, and they continue to do so throughout appetizers. Vanessa is hanging on Nate like a dying vine, and Nate's looking especially uncomfortable. Serena found herself a seat right beside Nate, and Dan was forced to sit between her and Chuck, who keeps glaring at him for no apparent reason. He hates this. He hates pretenses, and this crowd are the Kings and Queens of fake.
"Do you have a problem?" Chuck calls him out, and Dan is tempted to say yes, I do have a problem. My girlfriend is in love with another guy, and she might not even know it. So yes Chuck fucking Bass, I do have a problem. But instead he just shakes his head and chomps into a dry roll. Blair gives him a funny look (not quite pity, but close) and then sips her white wine.
Nate starts talking about his sail boat, and Dan has to stifle a groan. Serena's eyes light up at the mention, and she leans over and whispers something in Nate's ear. Nate laughs, and for a second her head rests on Nate's shoulder. It's only a second, but it's enough to make Dan's heart sink. When he looks across the table at Vanessa her face has fallen too, and he thinks maybe she's not as blind as she pretends to be.
Serena suggests they all go to the boat after dinner, buy some cheap wine, listen to good 

music – fun times. Dan prays Blair will say no because she's in a bad mood. But she and Chuck have made up between the appetizers and the main meal and she happily agrees with the plan. Chuck still glares at him, but it's a slow burn instead of the intense heat it was before. Vanessa whispers something to Nate, but he just shrugs and tells Serena it's a great idea. Every idea Serena has, is great to Nate. Serena turns to Dan as an after thought and asks if he's in. He nods, and starts to say something, but she's already turned back to Nate.
She's touching his arm again.
It's a rainy Wednesday when he finds her sitting on a bench outside of the Palace. He's been calling her all afternoon but her voicemail is full, and she's not calling him back. He sits beside her even though the bench is wet, and his pants are now damp and uncomfortable. It's still drizzling out, and if she wasn't so beautiful she'd look like a drowned rat. He takes her hand, and she lets him hold it. He asks her what's wrong, but she just turns to him with this lost look in her eyes. He thinks he sees tears, but they mingle with the rain drops and he can't be sure. She's broken. He can see that clearly now, and it scares him, because he's not the one who broke her.
"What happened?" He manages to get out even though he doesn't really want to know. He's scared she'll decide to tell him the truth, and then all the dreams he has for the future will come crashing down around him. She is his future. That's what he's always believed, but is he her future? He's not sure, and what's even worse is that he doesn't think she is either.
"I'm fine." The way she says it is so emotionless, so cold that he's shocked into silence. She pulls her hand out of his, and folds it with her other in her lap. She stares down at her fingers like they're foreign objects. He doesn't know what to do or say, all he knows is he wants to make it better. He knows he can't though.
He stands up and brushes at the back of his pants. He feels useless and used, and it's more horrible than he ever thought it could be. She looks up at him again, some silent pleading in her eyes, but he doesn't know what she wants him to do.
"Tell me…" he says without really knowing what he's asking.
"I can't," she murmurs as the wind picks up and the rain begins whipping again. Her phone buzzes in her pocket, and he doesn't have to look to know who's calling her. She exhales a loud breath, and it sounds a lot like relief. Did they fight? Did she think he wouldn't call her? He can't imagine the insecurities that she's acquired over the years where Nate is involved.
"You should answer it," he tells her. She pulls it out of her pocket, and does just that. He tells himself she wouldn't have if he hadn't told her to, but it's a lie. He listens to her whisper softly into the phone. She greets him, she apologizes, and she assures him he wasn't in the wrong. She tells him she understands his point of view, and that she never meant to upset him. Dan wants to puke right there on the Palace steps. They talk for a 

hide it from him, but he's been waiting for it, so he finds it anyway. They're engaged. Nate proposed at Christmas in front of family and friends… Serena cried. The wedding will take place in seven months. They couldn't even wait the full year.
Dan runs into Blair a few weeks later. She's bossing around some florist on the phone, and Dan figures she's steering the wedding planning ship with Lily and Nate's mom. Blair notices him, and surprisingly comes over to say hello. Dan isn't sure how to approach this unexpected turn of events, so he mostly plays the mute.
"Sorry, Humphrey," she says at last.
"For what?" He asks, even though he damn well knows what she's referring to. She doesn't bother to answer, just cocks her perfectly waxed eyebrow up at him. "Oh… I wish them well." He gives her the standard line.
"Big of you," she laughs to herself. She seems like she's going to say something else, but Chuck arrives at her side before she can. Chuck glares, Dan rolls his eyes, and Blair grins. This has always been the sum of their interactions. "Time to go, darling." She purrs at Chuck, and Dan turns away.
"Humphrey," Chuck sneers in his direction, before heading for the double doors to call his limo around.
"Always a pleasure," Dan calls after him. He turns back to Blair then, and an uncomfortable silence lingers. "She seems happy," he finally says.
Blair nods. "She is happy… she loves him." Blair isn't trying to twist the knife. She's stating fact, and Dan thinks he might be ready to accept that. "Have a good life." She tells him, and with one last fleeting look she's out the door. Dan watches as she meets Chuck outside. She kisses him peckishly and then laughs at whatever teasing thing Chuck says to her. Dan won't miss them, he never really liked them, but it's just another piece of his life that has faded.
Dan runs into Nate three months after the wedding. He's tan, and sporting some serious stubble. Dan tries to hide behind a rack of clothes, but Nate spots him and comes over. They stand face to face for the first time since Nate stole the love of Dan's life, and neither know what to say.
"How's it going?" Nate finally opts for the obvious.
"Fine. You?" Dan returns very civilized.
"Good." Nate bobs his head assertively, and Dan can tell he'd rather be anywhere but there. Nate is at heart a nice guy though, and can't just ignore Dan's very existence, no matter how much Dan wishes he would. "So…"
"Congratulations on the wedding." Dan says and he's halfway to meaning it.
"Thanks…" Nate looks around for a moment, before he turns back to Dan. It seems hard for him to meet Dan's eyes, but he finally does. "Look man, I'm sorry about everything that went down… she never meant to…" Nate doesn't finish that thought. Maybe he realizes how ill advised it is to rub salt into old wounds. Whatever the reason Dan is grateful.
"Water under the bridge," Dan says and feels closer to being okay than he has in a while. "See you around." Dan waves at him and walks away.


because there won't be. "It was nice seeing you guys," he tells them and means it. He doesn't even mind Chuck, because it's clear Emmaline has him wrapped around her fingers. Dan can tell because Chuck's letting her wipe her sticky hands on his pants, and Chuck really loves his clothes.
Times have changed.
"Okay, well, it was nice seeing you." Serena smiles at him. She's beautiful, and untouchable, and happier than he's ever seen her. She's a wife, and a mother, and he doesn't fit in anymore. It's alright though… he's alright.
"Bye Dan," Emmaline waves a pink dyed hand at him, before grabbing onto her Uncle Chuck and pulling him away to some new fascinating thing. "Beeee!" She calls after Blair, and Blair shrugs before saying a quick goodbye to Dan and running after her husband and niece.
That leaves Nate, Serena, and Dan. All members of the triangle present and accounted for. This time it's not a triangle though. Serena and Nate got it right. Dan was still working on it, but he had faith in his future.
"I should go make sure she doesn't talk them into anything crazy. Neither one of them can say no," Serena laughs softly. Then she leans down and hugs Dan quickly. "Take care of yourself." She whispers, before rushing off to join the rest of her life.
Nate lingers behind a moment, and Dan wonders what he's waiting for. "Nice seeing you," Nate settles on this, and Dan thinks he might just mean it. It doesn't make him bitter that Nate is a nice guy anymore, he's just glad Serena and her little girl have that. The most indecisive guy Dan's ever met seems sure of himself. It suits him.
"Hey Nate," Dan calls out to him before he can walk away. Nate turns back expectantly. "You have a beautiful kid. You guys did a nice job." Dan means it.
Nate grins, full of pride and joy. "Yeah," he agrees not at all ashamed of the life he's created. "Thanks." He waves at Dan before jogging over to his family. He picks his kid up and swings her around while she laughs crazily. Chuck and Blair hover nearby, and Serena twirls around like the eternal princess she'll always be.
Dan smiles to himself, before getting up and walking in the other direction. He can let them all go now, the golden prince, and his princess, with their little blonde angel, the king and queen of cruel with their own baby on the way. Dan took a breath, released it, and moved on with the rest of his life. 'Good luck', he thought. Farewell.


Vanessa也会一起去，她正沉浸于和Nate的热恋中。Dan觉得她是幸运的，因为她并没有看到自己所看到的那些暧昧的举动。Vanessa仿佛有种天分一般，总是会恰巧的看向另一个方向，从而避开了那些使Dan备受折磨的小细节。Serena装作和Vanessa关系还不错的样子，礼貌的笑容，得体的交谈，就像一切都很随和平静一样。可是Dan可以肯定，这只是表面现象而已，在内心深处她一定非常非常的讨厌Vanessa，就只是因为她是Nate名义上的女友而已。Dan讨厌自己想到这些，他希望是自己小心眼，可是他确定，有一次，当Nate的注意力不在Serena的身上的时候，她整个人表现出的嫉妒和羡慕的神情。
晚餐的气氛很古怪，每个人都各有心事。Blair和Chuck赶到的时候正在不停地争辩些什么，一直到开胃菜结束他们的争吵都没有停止过。Vanessa一直靠着Nate就像没有骨头一样，Nate看起来极不舒服的样子。Serena在紧靠着Nate的位子坐下来，于是Dan不得已的坐到了她和Chuck之间，那个一直莫名其妙看向他的家伙。他讨厌这样，讨厌虚伪，就像和一群假冒的国王皇后拥挤在一起一样。


17到25楼的原文用了好久才出来啊……最开始发的，过了半个小时才出来

"Do you have a problem?" Chuck calls him out, and Dan is tempted to say yes, I do have a problem. My girlfriend is in love with another guy, and she might not even know it. So yes Chuck f_сking Bass, I do have a problem. But instead he just shakes his head and chomps into a dry roll. Blair gives him a funny look (not quite pity, but close) and then sips her white wine.
Nate starts talking about his sail boat, and Dan has to stifle a groan. Serena's eyes light up at the mention, and she leans over and whispers something in Nate's ear. Nate laughs, and for a second her head rests on Nate's shoulder. It's only a second, but it's enough to make Dan's heart sink. When he looks across the table at Vanessa her face has fallen too, and he thinks maybe she's not as blind as she pretends to be.


“你有什么问题么？”Chuck挑出来质问他，Dan很想说，对，我是有问题，我的女朋友爱着另一个男人，也许连她自己都不知道！所以，是的！TMD Chuck Bass，我是有问题。可是，他并没有真的这么做，取而代之的是，摇了摇头，大口的嚼着嘴里的食物。Blair瞟了他一眼，不全是同情，不过也差不多了，接着她啜了一口手中的白酒。
Nate开始将他的那艘帆船，Dan感到自己快要窒息了，Serena双眼发光的靠向Nate在他耳边小声说了什么，Nate笑了，而她有一瞬间把头靠在了他的肩上。虽然只有一瞬间，但这已经足够让Dan感到内心的疼痛了。当他看隔过餐桌看向Vanessa的时候，她的表情也一下塌陷下来，也许她并不像她故意掩饰的那样，什么都没有注意到。


Serena suggests they all go to the boat after dinner, buy some cheap wine, listen to good music – fun times. Dan prays Blair will say no because she's in a bad mood. But she and Chuck have made up between the appetizers and the main meal and she happily agrees with the plan. Chuck still glares at him, but it's a slow burn instead of the intense heat it was before. Vanessa whispers something to Nate, but he just shrugs and tells Serena it's a great idea. Every idea Serena has, is great to Nate. Serena turns to Dan as an after thought and asks if he's in. He nods, and starts to say something, but she's already turned back to Nate.
She's touching his arm again.
It's a rainy Wednesday when he finds her sitting on a bench outside of the Palace. He's been calling her all afternoon but her voicemail is full, and she's not calling him back. He sits beside her even though the bench is wet, and his pants are now damp and uncomfortable. It's still drizzling out, and if she wasn't so beautiful she'd look like a drowned rat. He takes her hand, and she lets him hold it. He asks her what's wrong, but she just turns to him with this lost look in her eyes. He thinks he sees tears, but they mingle with the rain drops and he can't be sure. She's broken. He can see that clearly now, and it scares him, because he's not the one who broke her.


Serena建议晚餐结束后，大家一起去他的船上玩，买一些便宜的白酒，听着好听的音乐 – 欢乐时光。Dan祈祷Blair会拒绝因为她现在并不开心，可是在开胃菜结束，主菜上来之前，她和Chuck已经和好了，所以她很开心的同意了。Chuck依旧不时地瞟他一眼，一点一点缓慢地刺痛着他。Vanessa小声对Nate说了些什么，而他只是耸耸肩，赞同的表示Serena的建议很赞。Serena的每一个建议对Nate而言都很赞。Serena先斩后奏地转向Dan问他要不要一起去，他点了点头，刚要说话，她已经转回去看着Nate了。
她又在碰触他的胳膊了。
那是一个阴雨的星期三，他在皇宫酒店的外面看到她坐在长椅上。他一整个下午都在打电话给她，可是留言信箱说已经满了，而她一次也没有回过他的电话。他坐在她的旁边湿漉漉的座椅上，使得他的裤子变得潮湿而不舒服。天空依然飘着毛毛雨，如果她不是这么漂亮的话，一定看起来会像落汤鸡一样的。他握住了她的手，她并没有反抗。他问她怎么了，而她只是转过头迷茫地看着他。他隐隐地看到了她的泪水，可是和雨混在一起，他不能确定那到底是不是眼泪。他清楚地知道此刻的她心碎了，这让他感到害怕，因为击碎她的心的人，并不是他自己。


"What happened?" He manages to get out even though he doesn't really want to know. He's scared she'll decide to tell him the truth, and then all the dreams he has for the future will come crashing down around him. She is his future. That's what he's always believed, but is he her future? He's not sure, and what's even worse is that he doesn't think she is either.
"I'm fine." The way she says it is so emotionless, so cold that he's shocked into silence. She pulls her hand out of his, and folds it with her other in her lap. She stares down at her fingers like they're foreign objects. He doesn't know what to do or say, all he knows is he wants to make it better. He knows he can't though.


“出什么事了？”他试图理清前因后果，虽然他并不是真的想要知道。他有些怕她会对自己说出实情，接着自己对未来的一切幻想和期待都将在瞬间崩塌。她就是他的未来，他一直都认为如此，可是他也是她的未来么？他不知道，更糟的是，他觉得此刻的她甚至也许都不会出现在他的未来。
“我没事。”她面无表情冷冷地说道，这让他不知道要怎么接下去。她抽回自己的手，左右手握在一起夹在双腿之间。她低下头看着自己的手指，就像是什么她从来没有看到过的东西一样。他不知道自己该说些什么或做些什么，他只知道他希望能让这一切好起来，虽然他明白这并不在自己的能力范围内。


下班喽~~剩下的等明天了
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He stands up and brushes at the back of his pants. He feels useless and used, and it's more horrible than he ever thought it could be. She looks up at him again, some silent pleading in her eyes, but he doesn't know what she wants him to do.
"Tell me…" he says without really knowing what he's asking.
"I can't," she murmurs as the wind picks up and the rain begins whipping again. Her phone buzzes in her pocket, and he doesn't have to look to know who's calling her. She exhales a loud breath, and it sounds a lot like relief. Did they fight? Did she think he wouldn't call her? He can't imagine the insecurities that she's acquired over the years where Nate is involved.


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