“我不能说。”她轻柔地回应道。他不知道她是在保护谁？他，她自己，还是Nate，或许她是在努力地避免三个人之间的纷争，虽然，她的努力并没有达到预期的效果。他们都知道这一点。她和Nate正在吵架，而自己也更加苦闷。虽然Vanessa是这段四角恋的另一个角，可是看起来却更像是三角恋一般。
“你必须告诉我。”他用不带有任何感情色彩的声音说道。他已经做好准备来承受故事的来龙去脉了，他已经做好准备放手了。他一直是为了她而活着的，为她改变了所有他可以改变的，而这一切却是那么的微不足道，他终于看清了这一切。相比于她的王子，他只是一个马夫罢了，然而这个女孩朝思暮想的却只有她的王子，虽然连她自己都不曾意识到这一点。他的头发是棕色的，而不是金色的；他的眼睛也是棕色的，而不是蓝色的；他身上的所有都不是她所想要的，而她终于发现了这一点。他并不觉得Nate是那个值得拥有她的人，不过，这已经不重要了。
“我很糟糕……”


他忍不住想要抓住她的肩狂摇直到她愿意吐露出实情，可是他没有这么做，他就只是握着她的手，抚着她的背。他在安慰着这个即将把他的心一片片撕碎的女孩，可是他又该怎么做呢？他是一个好男人，他无法像混蛋Chuck Bass那样一走了之。他无法像Nate那样这么多年来一直忽视着她的感情。所以他只能握住手中的一线光芒，希望能够找到出口。
“我需要知道。”他嘶吼着，她抬起眼皮看着他的眼睛。他从她的眼神中看到了罪恶感，看到了伤痛，看到了犹豫不决。他想要知道她到底在担心些什么，他想要知道她到底又没有爱过自己。他希望她有过，因为他知道自己不会再想爱她一样爱任何一个人。
“这是很丢脸的一件事，真的。”她推开他，抹了抹眼睛，展示出一个完美的假笑，随后笑容就消失了。Dan任由她整理者自己的思绪。“Nate和我有些小小的争执……根本不是什么大不了的事情……我表现得就像一个懦夫一样。”


When she says his name it cuts like a knife through Dan, and he knows he can't go on like this anymore. Nate is a f_сking ghost haunting their relationship, and he's never going to give Dan any peace. Dan misses that idyllic first year with Serena when Nate was too busy being a moron to really fight for her, and Serena was still feeling too guilty over Blair to really look at him. Dan had her then, he had her whole heart he thinks. But Nate woke up, and so did Serena. He remembers their kiss at the white party – they fit so well together.
"You love him." Dan says this as fact, because he knows it is. She opens her mouth to deny him, but he can see the moment when her eyes change, and her mouth shuts softly. She never tells him he's wrong, she just begins crying again. She doesn't lean into him this time though, and he's greatful for that.


"I don't mean to," she whispers. She sounds like a little child, and he aches for her, and him, and everything that is about to happen. Nate will f_сk it up. Dan knows he will. Serena probably knows Nate will too, but love is love. You don't choose. Dan definitely wouldn't have chosen her, but he's glad she chose him for the short amount of time she did.
"I know." He puts his hand over hers and lets it rest for a moment. Then he stands up again, and heads for the street. He'll splurge on a cab, and get back over the bridge as fast as he can. Brooklyn has never sounded so good before. The Upper East Side has broken his heart.


“我不是故意的。”她小声说，此刻的她就像是一个小孩子，他为她，为他，还有一切接下来将要发生的事情感到一阵心痛。Nate终将TMD得逞，Dan知道他会的，Serena大概也知道。可是，这就是爱，你没的选择。Dan绝对不会选择要爱上她，不过他很开心，她曾短暂的选择了自己。
“我明白。”他把手放在她的手上，停留了片刻后，再一次站了起来，像街边走去。他会奢侈地打一辆车，然后以最快的速度奔回他车库一样的家，布鲁克林从来没有像此时此刻听起来这样美好过。上东区伤了他的心，狠狠地碾碎了。


更新个就去工作啦
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两个月后，他在街上看到他们在一起压马路，Serena从来没有给过Dan那样灿烂的笑容，就连平日一直阴沉着脸的Nate此时也露出灿烂的笑容，就像一颗点了灯的圣诞树。他们站在一起是那样的耀眼，Dan几乎要被光芒晃到无法直视他们了。就在Serena那个充满泪水的雨天过后的第三天，Nate就甩了Vanessa，Vanessa很受伤，不像Dan，早已预料到了这样的结果。他甚至可以清晰地想象出来那天是怎样来临的。Serena大概就在Dan离开后不到5秒的时间就去找了Nate，结果那个一贯举棋不定的Nate居然就明白了接下来该怎么做，当然啦，他一定会用上几天的时间来理清以前的事情，然后才能和她在一起，比如他一脚踢开Vanessa的事情。虽然一切都是意料之中，可是Dan依然感到心中一阵一阵的刺痛。
那是他第一次这么近距离的看着他们两个人甜甜蜜蜜的样子，他们笑着，聊着，Dan告诉自己要镇定，可是，接下来，Serena搂住Nate的脖子，吻上了他的嘴唇，Nate当然欣然接受，他们就这样，站在Manhattan的中心地带，向世人宣示着那份彼此间不朽的传奇。


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Dan could see there future flash before his eyes. They would date for another year before Nate would get down on one knee and propose. He'd probably say exactly the right thing, and Serena would cry and say yes without even thinking about it. The truth is she'd probably been thinking about it all her life. He's pretty sure Nate was always the white knight in all her childhood fantasies. They'd stay engaged for a proper amount of time while Lily and Nate's mother planned the wedding. Serena wouldn't care about that, and neither would Nate. Finally, the wedding would come. It would be the social event of the season, and Dan might even get a pity invite because Lily still kind of talked to his dad. Dan would go and watch the girl of his dreams marry the man of hers. She'd wear all white and look like a goddess. Blair would be her maid of honor, and Chuck would be the best man. They would both be thrilled because now they could be the perfect foursome without the Brooklyn interlopers. Blair and Chuck always resented Vanessa and Dan for mucking things up. After the wedding they'd grace the society section for a while, the perfect golden pair for everyone to be envious of. Nate would be successful at whatever he chose, Serena the same of course. The UES didn't do failure. And then eventually they'd have perfect toe headed children with bright blue eyes and infectious smiles. Their lives would go on in perfect harmony while Dan struggled through the rest of his.


今天忙死了，到现在还在加班
虫虫惯例，周末无更新，大家周一见~~

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Dan甚至可以看到他们的未来在眼前飞闪而过，在Nate单膝跪地求婚之前，他们会先约会大概一年的光景，他大概会说出最真挚最感人最内心的话语，Serena会感动到流泪，想也不想的就说Yes，事实是，这大概是她一直以来都梦想的一刻。他基本上可以确定，在她无尽美好的童年Nate一直都是那个白马骑士。他们会订婚一阵子，以给Lily和Nate的妈妈充分的时间来准备婚礼，虽然Serena并不在意那个仪式，当然Nate也不会在意。再然后，婚礼终将到来，会是那一阵子最重大的社交事件，Dan大概也会受到请柬，因为Lily和他的爸爸依然有来往。Dan会去参加，看着他的梦中情人嫁给属于她的那个男人。她会穿上纯白的婚纱，就像仙女一样圣洁，Blair会是她的伴娘，Chuck当然就会是伴郎。他们都会非常的激动，因为从此他们会成为正式的四人组，不再有来自布鲁克林的打扰。Blair和Chuck一直很讨厌Vanessa和Dan的存在毁了他们的生活。婚礼结束后，他们依然会忙碌一段时间以应付社交的需要，这对让每一个人羡慕的金童玉女。Nate的事业会平步青云，不管他将涉足哪一个领域，Serena当然也是一样，上东区没有失败。最终的最终，他们将拥有几个从头到脚都无比完美的小孩子，有着明亮的蓝色眼睛和可以感染每一个人的笑容。他们的生活将完美无瑕的进行着，而Dan将终生挣扎在他自己的世界。


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Serena noticed Dan when she pulled away from Nate that day on the street. She stared at him in surprise for a moment, before she whispered something to Nate and then headed Dan's way. Dan hated that she felt the need to be polite, he really wished she would have just gone on her way. But that wasn't Serena, and he accepted that.
"Hi," she smiled at him shyly, and he figured she was unsure of how he would treat her. He resented that because he'd never been anything but good to her. Even now, he didn't have the heart to rain on her parade.
He nodded at her, unable to muster up a proper smile in return. "Seems like you're happy." He said very matter of fact, and she didn't respond at first. "It's okay." He heard himself saying, and hoped one day that would be true.
"Yeah, I'm happy," she finally conceded, and glanced back across the street where Nate was standing talking to someone on his phone. "Nate wasn't sure if… I mean he wanted to say hi, but…" She couldn't figure out what to say next, and Dan really wished she wouldn't have brought up Nate. The way she said his name now was so intimate. She loved him. This wasn't some weird adolescent attachment for them. This was the real thing.


当Serena和Nate停止亲热的时候，她终于注意到了Dan，她愣在那里惊讶地看着他，和Nate耳语了几句，向Dan走来。Dan讨厌她表面上的友好，宁愿她直接走开，可是那样的话就不是Serena了，他只得接受这样的她。
“嗨~”她羞涩的笑着跟他打招呼，他明白那是因为她不知道他会如何对待她。他讨厌这样是因为他从来都不是她的谁，只是一个对她好的物品罢了。即使是现在，他依然不忍心看着她在雨中痛苦不堪。
他向她点点头，实在无力挤出一个可以作为回应的微笑。“你看起来很开心。”他说出了一个众所周知的事实，她并没有做出任何回答。“没关系的。”他听到自己说，希望有一天这可以变成事实。
“是啊，我很开心。”她纵欲承认了，回头望了一眼街对面的Nate，此时的他正在打电话。“Nate不知道……我是说他想要来跟你问好，可是……”Serena想不出该怎么说下去，而Dan真的不希望听她提到Nate。现在的她说起Nate的名字实在是充满着无限的甜蜜，甜到腻。她爱他，这并不是青春期的悸动，而是真正存在的，真的爱情。


"It's cool, you can tell him I said hello. I really have to get going though… classes start back soon and… Well, it was good seeing you." He doesn't know why but he reaches out and pats her arm as he's walking away. She smiles sadly at him, and he stops looking at her because he's afraid that's pity in her eyes.
"Bye, Dan." Her soft voice whispers in the air behind him as he keeps walking. He finally looks back when he gets to the corner, and he sees her standing with Nate again. They're smiling at each other, and Nate is leaning down and pressing his forehead against Serena's. Dan hates them both for a minute, before he remembers that will do him no good.
"Goodbye," he mumbles under his breath and keeps on going.


“没什么，帮我跟他问好，不过我真的要走了……我的课马上就要开始了，而且……呃，很高兴见到你。”他不由自主地伸出手拍了拍她的胳膊，然后快步走开。她有些难过的看着他，他不敢看着她，因为怕从她的眼中看到同情。
“再见，Dan。”她温柔的告别由风传递到他的耳中，他继续快步前行，直到街角才回过头，他看到她已经回到了Nate的身边，他们对着对方温柔地笑着， Nate低下身，和她靠着额头。有那么一瞬间，Dan恨他们， 恨他们两个，可是后来他发现，这对他自己不会带来任何好处。
“再见。”他嘟囔着，继续前行。


“我为你感到很遗憾，Humphrey。”她终于说了出来。
“为了什么？”他问，虽然他当然知道她指的是什么。她甚至都不打算回答，就只是对着他挑了挑眉毛。“哦……我希望他们会很好。”他给出了一个标准式的回答。
“你很大度。”她自顾自地笑着，似乎打算再说些什么，不过Chuck来到了她的旁边。Chuck瞪着Dan，Dan转了转眼球，Blair在一旁大笑。他们在一起的时候总是会出现这样的场景。“该走了，宝贝。”她拍了拍Chuck，Dan转身离开。
“humphrey。”Chuck嘲弄地念着他的名字，向双开的大门走去，叫他的limo过来。
“总是很高兴见到你。”Dan回应着，走到Blair的旁边，默默地徘徊了很久，终于张口说道，“她看起来很开心。”
Blair点点头。“她确实很开心……她爱他。”Blair并不像让Dan心中的刀子加速地搅动，她只是说出了事实，Dan觉得自己已经可以接受了。“希望你未来的生活愉快。”她对他说，随着最后的一个眼神，她消失在门口。Dan看着她去门外找Chuck，热情地亲吻了他，然后笑着回应不管Chuck在说的是什么东西。Dan不会想念他们的，他从来都不喜欢他们，只是，又有一些人要从他的生命中褪去了。