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He says his current efforts as a soloist came about in similar fashion. In 2016, Tomlinson had become a father. (His son, Freddie, “who I love so much”, was born after a brief relationship with a Californian stylist called Briana Jungwirth.) He had some other personal matters to work through and in the summer he went on holiday to Las Vegas to blow off steam. At a club the American DJ Steve Aoiki was playing. Tomlinson, giddy with delight from Aoiki’s set, suggested to the DJ they try writing something together. In career terms, he had inched off the hill again, without necessarily considering the gradient of the slope.
他说他现在为成为独唱歌手作出的努力跟那时差不多 2016年 Louis当上了爸爸( “我非常非常爱的”儿子Freddie 在他和来自California的造型师Briana Jungwirth的短暂恋情后出生了) 他还有很多其他私事要处理 所以夏天的时候他跑去Las Vegas 放了个假来发泄 美国DJ Steve Aoiki正在他当时去的酒吧演出 被Aoiki令人眼花撩乱的表演所折服 Louis提议他们俩可以尝试一起写歌 换一句话来说就是 世上无难事 只怕有心人
A few months later, Tomlinson says, a single he’d written with Aoiki was being rolled out for release through One Direction’s old record label, Syco. Tomlinson was booked in to perform it on live TV. “And I was, like: ‘Did I really think this through?’”
Louis说 几个月后 他和Aoiki合作的一首单曲已经准备从One Direction原先的厂牌 Syco.发布了 Louis被邀请在电视上现场表演 “我当时想‘我真的好好考虑了要这么做吗’”

Which leads Tomlinson to reason two. He’s well aware he was fast-tracked into his music career. That, as a part of One Direction, he was only a piece of a “heavy machine”. And as a self-aware northerner, from a proudly working class family, this has left Tomlinson with residual guilt to answer about wealth and status that do not feel to him fully earned. “And I know, I know it sounds ungrateful. But I think about a man, on a nine-to-five, working his arse off for six months so he can go to his family and say: ‘Guys, I’m taking you to Disneyland.’ That moment… I’ll never have that in my family life. And I’ve worked hard. But I’ve never worked hard, not like that.”
这给了Louis第二个原因 他非常明白他在他的音乐事业中进展太快了 在One Direction里他只是”一架重型机器”中的一部分 作为一个有自省意识的北方人 他的家庭是一个骄傲的工薪阶层 Louis觉得自己不那么配得上他的财富和地位 他还有一些残留的罪恶感 “我知道这听起来有些不知好歹 但想想看一个人朝九晚五地工作 拼了老命 才能在六个月后对他的家人说‘我能带你们去迪士尼乐园玩了’ 我在家里从来没有经历过那样一个时刻 我工作得很努力 但我没有付出过那样的努力”

Tomlinson says he has already sweated more for this record than any before. When you’re putting together material as a soloist, he says, you quickly learn that those hot-shot collaborators who once dribbled to work with One Direction no longer pick up the phone so readily. “I couldn’t say to you now that I could definitely get a superstar writer in a session with me. And I understand that.” Tomlinson adds, with no real vinegar: “Harry won’t struggle with any of that.”

Louis说他为这张专辑付出的汗水比之前任何一张都要多 他说 当你作为一个独唱歌手组织计划的时候 你很快就会发现 那些曾经挤破脑袋想要跟One Direction合作的业界高手们 再也没有那么容易地接起他们的电话了 “我现在不能跟你打包票说我一定能和一位超级明星一起合作 我也明白这一点” Louis不带醋意地补充道 “这些是Harry轻而易举就能得到的”

In their One Direction days, no question, Styles got the most attention. But all the boys had their devotees and Tomlinson wants to prove to his own fans – reason three – that he’s been worth the backing all these years. “I honestly think they’ll write books about One Direction fans,” Tomlinson says. “Because they are so fanatical. The intensity. It’s remarkable.”
在1D的那些日子里 Harry得到了人们最多的关注 这是毋庸置疑的 但是其他几个人也都有各自的粉丝 Louis也想要证明给自己的粉丝看 – 这是第三个原因 – 证明他自己是值得粉丝们的支持的 “我真的觉得以后会有人为我们的粉丝写一本书” Louis说 “他们对我们的狂热 为我们投入的感情之多 真的太不可思议了”

Tomlinson cannot talk about it with me, not without getting into muddy legal waters, but there was recently a difficult episode involving a small crowd of fans at an airport in LA. He was travelling with his partner, Eleanor Calder, who is viewed with some distrust by the fiercest corps of Louis fans. Video footage seems to show Calder being surrounded and attacked by a group of girls. Tomlinson, unable to discuss the matter, says to me more generally that he hopes his new music will reveal to fans a more complete version of himself than before. “Honestly, it’s crazy. It’s hard for a lot of people who are fanatical to believe that you are a real entity and a person.”
Louis无法和我谈论这个话题 一说起来他就会变得十分感性 但是最近发生了一件事 是Louis在和自己的同伴Eleanor Calder到达LA机场时发生的 粉丝似乎不怎么信任她 在视频里可以看到Calder被一群女孩围住攻击 Louis无法和我谈论这件事 但他对我说希望他带来的新音乐可以让歌迷看到比之前更全面更立体的他”说实话这真的很疯狂 对于这些狂热的信徒来说 你很难说服他们你是一个实际存在的一个有血有肉的人”

Which brings us to reason four. Reason four Tomlinson discusses with caution. Reason four he enshrouds with disclaimers: that it is not his intention to tell “a sob story”, that “I don’t like people feeling sorry for me”. Reason four concerns his mum.
这就让我们说到了第四个原因 说起这个原因Louis十分谨慎 他说起第四个原因时语气中透露出防备 他本意并不想讲述一个”煽情的故事” 也不想”让别人同情我” 第四个原因就是他的母亲

Johannah Deakin was diagnosed with leukaemia in early 2016. Tomlinson had been worried his luck would run out; that having been “dealt that amazing band” to squeak into the last berth in One Direction, he was due some sort of equalising blow. And he gives a bleak little laugh when he recalls where he was when the terrible phone call came. “At Jamie Vardy’s wedding of all places. Talk about your places, for something super-traumatic. My mum told me, uh, yeah, that she was definitely terminal.”
Louis的妈妈Johannah Deakin在2016年早些时候被诊断患有白血病 Louis一直担心他的好运气就快用完了 从”在那个神奇的男团”开始到1D单飞的前一刻 他一直承受着一些生活的不平衡 当我问到他是在哪里接到那一通让他心碎的电话时 他苦涩地笑了笑 “全世界那么多地方 我是在Jamie Vardy的婚礼上接到的电话 这简直就是雪上加霜 之后我妈妈告诉我 她绝对是晚期了”

They were unusually close. He recalls how she was often one step ahead “because she had the password to my email”. It was an intimacy he attributes to them being close in age. “I remember the day I lost my virginity. I hadn’t even told any of my mates and I was, like: ‘Mum? I know this is really weird. But I’ve got to tell you…’ I remember thinking this is a bizarre conversation to be having with your mother. But it’s testament to how comfortable she made me.”
他们之前不同寻常的亲密 他回忆起他妈妈经常能够未雨绸缪 “因为她有我邮箱的密码” 他们的关系随着年龄的增长愈加亲密 “失去处男之身的那天我谁都没有告诉我去找了我妈妈和她说"妈妈我知道这很奇怪但是我必须要告诉你…” 我还记得当时就觉得和自己的妈妈谈论这个话题也太奇葩了 但是这也说明了和她交流我有多自然”

When Deakin died, in December 2016, Tomlinson was only days away from the live gig he’d agreed to do on the X Factor. “I remember saying to her: ‘Mum, how the **** do you expect me to do this now?’ And she didn’t swear much, my mum. She’d always tell me off for swearing. And this time she was like: ‘You’ve got to ****ing do it, it’s as simple as that.’ It was football manager, team talk stuff.’” The footage of Tomlinson’s performance that weekend is hard to watch. When he first appears on the X Factor stage he looks rigid, almost plastic, with grief. He’s clearly able to lose himself in the three-minute drama of a pop song. And after that the colour drains right back out of his face.
2016年11月份 Louis妈妈去世的时候 离Louis在XFacotor的表演仅剩最后几天 “我还记得我对她说” ‘妈妈 ***现在要怎么去表演啊’ 我妈妈平时是不怎么说脏话的 我说脏话的时候她总是会说我 但是那次她说’你必须要他妈坚强起来直接去做 就这么简单’ 就像足球教练和队员一样 她一直在鼓励我” Louis那星期的表演片段看着非常让人心疼 他刚一出现在XFactor的舞台上整个人非常的僵硬 像是塑料人一样 脸上弥漫着悲伤 很显然他已经准备好在这三分半钟的歌曲中彻底放纵自己 但表演完之后所有的颜色瞬间从他的脸上消失了

Tomlinson smokes for a bit. He says: “I’m not gonna claim this is all for me mum. But it was definitely… It was…”
Louis抽了一会烟 他说”我不会说我这首歌是献给我妈妈的 但是这确实是…这确实…”
He thinks. Throughout his life, he says, his mum always had greater belief in him than he did. “Sometimes my reservation, or my confidence, might have prevented me from doing something. And I’ve needed a mum in the past to kick me up the arse and go: ‘You’re doing it.’”
他沉思了一会 在他的人生中 他说 他妈妈一直对他很有信心 比他对自己的信心还要大”有时候我对自己的怀疑或者不自信 会阻止我去做一些事 我需要一位母亲在背后督促我鼓励我说‘你做到了’ ”
The boy bander has his reasons, then. “I’ve enjoyed this,” he says. “An opportunity to talk super openly. Not, y’know, answer questions about who my favourite superhero is. I don’t feel I get that many chances.”
看来这位男团成员也有他自己的主见 “我很享受和你谈话的过程” 他说”有这样一个机会可以畅所欲言 而不是一味地回答我最喜欢的超级英雄是谁 我很少有这样的机会”

The pile of cigarette butts in front of him has mounted to quite a height. Tomlinson, seeming to notice it for the first time, mutters: “Sorry. I’ve been chaining.” His mum hated smoking, he says. Then he smiles. “Though I remember she had the occasional cigarette herself.”
堆在他面前的烟头越来越多 Louis似乎刚刚注意到 他嘟囔了一句”对不起 我抽的太多了” 他妈妈痛恨吸烟 他说 然后笑了 “但是她自己有时候也会抽烟”
He taps his lighter on the table and asks what I make of everything he’s said. “Do you think your readers are still gonna wonder: ‘Why doesn’t he just not do it?’”
他把打火机轻轻敲在桌面上 然后问我会怎么写下他说的这些话 “你觉得你的读者还会疑惑问‘他为什么还在坚持’
I’m not sure, I tell him, trying to be honest. But let’s see.
我不确定 我告诉他 试着诚实一些吧 但让我们拭目以待。

Louis in sportswear（一个成熟的丝丝）