【翻译】AVN - His Life, His Story...In His Own Words

My name is Sean Paul Lockhart. Most know me as “Brent Corrigan.”You likely have never heard of me. Infamous and not famous at all, I have beenreferred to by many in the mainstream vein of the adult industry as “the TraciLords of gay porn.” This is only one element of a salacious true-life tale ofporn, money, murder and desperation. My past has played an integral role in mycareer as an adult star, producer and actor in LGBT mainstream films. In July2016 I was made aware of a film being made about me, my shameful underage stintin porn, and the murder of Cobra Video owner Bryan Kocis. Spearheading theproject (as producer and star) was actor James Franco.
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我的名字是Sean Paul Lockhart。大多数人是从“Brent Corrigan”这个名字知道我的。你可能从来都没有听说过我。我曾被成人影业的主流人脉称为“钙片里的TraciLords”。然而这仅仅是桃色的，充斥着钙片、金钱、谋杀案和绝望的，真实人生故事其中的一点。我的过去，是在我事业中作为成人影星、制作人、以及主流电影中的同性恋角色一个不可缺少的部分。2016年7月，我得知了一部正在拍摄关于我的故事，关于我处于未成年阶段拍摄该片，和关于CobraVideo老板BryanKocis谋杀案的电影。带头拍摄这个项目（作为制作人和角色扮演者）的是演员JamesFranco。

Random? Not really.James Franco’s borderline obsession with gay culture is no secret. James,rumored to be gay for years, is not like the typical Hollywood leading man.With several credits as an actor and producer on films with gay subject matter,Franco seems unconcerned about a pattern of behavior that might call his sexualorientation into question. Milk, I Am Michael and Interior. Leather Bar. are just three LGBT films Franco has made.
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这是偶然的吗？不见得。James Franco近乎痴迷于同志文化已经不算秘密了。James，传闻他是同志有好几年了，他与那些好莱坞的引领者并不相似。尽管，作为同志题材电影的演员和制作人，他得到了一些认可，他似乎并不担心这些行为可能会让大众质疑他的性取向。Milk, I Am Michael、Interior和Leather Bar，是他所拍摄出的三部同性群体题材的电影。

His latest gay filmis King Cobra. It haphazardly depicts the story of a young mangrowing up too fast as he’s caught in the crosshairs of two feuding gay p0rncompanies. In Franco’s film, the character based on Bryan Kocis (playedby Christian Slater) is a loner. He owns, produces, films and edits all contentfor his studio, Cobra Video. Thereal Bryan specialized in the production of bareback gay p0rn featuring youngmen who looked way too young to be legal. Bryan had a habit ofcultivating inappropriate relationships with boys. Some as young as 15 yearsold.
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他最近的一部作品是King Cobra。它很随意地描述了一个年轻人因为被推上两家长期不和的钙片公司的风口浪尖而迅速成长的故事。（这部电影轻描淡写地讲述了一个故事，年轻的主角成为了两家钙片公司明争暗斗的牺牲品，而不得不如被催熟一般成长起来。）在Franco的电影里，以Bryan Kocis（由Christian Slater扮演）为原型的角色是一个不合群的人。他自己拥有、制作、拍摄和编辑工作室的所有内容——CobraVideo。真正的Bryan专攻于有看起来过分年轻以至于像是不合法拍摄的男孩合作的无圐套钙片作品。（现实生活中，Bryan专攻制作的钙片往往是无安全措施级别的，片中演员们的年龄看上去比法律所规定的要小得多。）Bryan有着和男孩们建立不正当关系的恶习。其中一些男孩最多不过十五岁。

It’s a tedious and maddening task abridging the series of eventsthat led to Bryan Kocis’ murder. It starts with my first shoot for Cobra onFebruary 3, 2004. My experience working underage for Bryan is fairly welldocumented. Simply put, Bryan was aware of my age before filming and movedforward with production despite the formalities. In no way am I proud of myunderage work and have worked hard to show that I respect and value thisindustry.
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减少一系列导致Bryan Kocis死亡的事件无疑是令人生厌且恼怒的。一切开始于2004年2月3日，我第一次为Cobra拍摄作品。我未成年却为Bryan工作的经历已经清楚地被记录下来了。简单地说，在拍摄之前Bryan就已经意识到我未成年，但他却不在乎所谓法律手续，而是选择继续拍摄。我决不因为我未成年“工作”的事所骄傲，只能更卖力地工作来表达我对这个影业的敬意和重视。

By the time I turned eighteen, Bryan had coerced me into asexual relationship. I was a young man fighting to define who I was and who Iwanted to become, with Bryan leering over me. P0rn was never meant to become alifelong career choice. As I came of age on set it was the production andequipment that fascinated me.
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等到我十八岁的时候，Bryan就强迫我跟他发生性圐关系。当时我只是一个不成熟的男孩，拼命想去定义自己是谁，想成为什么样的人，而Bryan却一直色迷迷地在一旁窥视我。拍钙片从来就不是能持续一辈子的工作选择。当我达到法定年龄，在片场中正是制片和那些拍摄设备让我深深着迷。

By 2005, details about my start in p0rn began to percolate. As if they could smell theproverbial rotting leftovers of scandal on the verge of coming out, vulturescirculating overhead made their move. Bryan began to lash out at me. Hewas disgruntled that I had not kept our secret better.
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到2005年，一些关于我开始拍钙片（指违法年龄）细节的消息逐渐被传开了。好像他们能嗅到明显的坏掉的过夜食物的气息——即将泄露丑闻的边缘一样，在头顶上盘旋着的“秃鹫”们作出了他们的行动。（丑闻已经到了泄露的边缘，“秃鹫”们开始在我头顶盘旋，蠢蠢欲动，仿佛嗅到了隔夜残羹明显的腐败气息。）Bryan开始痛打我。他对我没能更严实地捂住这个秘密感到恼火不满。
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注：娘的！！不知道甜心在这里讲的lash out是指生理上的痛打！还是单纯指在行业上的排斥打击！如果是前者！虽然死人为大！还是tm不能忍！！！（死得好！！

One of those“scavengers” was an attorney named Chad Belville. He offered to represent me as I prepared to contend withBryan Kocis and address the matter of my underage content proactively with theindustry. Belville went ahead to draft aggressive letters that wouldonly embolden Bryan Kocis. CobraVideo distributor Pacific Sun pulled all of Bryan’s releases of Brent Corrigan(underage and of age) upon receiving documentation from Belville that provedI was underage in the DVDs. Pacific Sun refused tosell another Brent Corrigan DVD until Bryan and I had worked out whatever wewere going through. By the time my partner, Grant Roy, and I were served papersfor a million-dollar lawsuit, Chad Belville had ceased representation.
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其中的一位“食腐者”是名字叫做Chad Belville的律师。在我准备对付Bryan Kocis，并且准备主动对整个行业解释关于未成年拍摄事件的内容的时候，他提议代表我。（当我准备好要与Bryan Kocis对簿公堂，解释清楚我在这个行业中参与未成年拍摄的遭遇时，他主动提出要做我的代表人。）Belville直接写了一封极具攻击性的信稿，这封信稿只会让BryanKocis更加放肆。在收到了Belville手中能证明我在这些影片中参演时尚未成年的文件之后，Cobra Video的经销商Pacific Sun立刻停止售出所有有Brent Corrigan（未成年时或已成年后）参演的钙片。Pacific Sun拒绝销售有关BrentCorrigan的DVD，除非Bryan跟我解决这些不管是什么乱七八糟的问题。在那时，我的伴侣，Grant Roy，和我一起担着一百万美元的诉讼费，而Chad Belville停止了代理。

Bryan’s arrogance governed his choices. My actions were guidedby a man, Grant Roy, with whom I’d fallen in love. Strong and loyal, Grantstood his ground and deflected attacks from Bryan. Together we endured thelawsuit and filed countersuit, citing Bryan’s claims against me as defamatory.Bryan charged that I had committed fraud and perjury regarding the specifics ofmy age. In the end, it was my word against his. I was a minor at the time andtherefore was not considered liable. The FBI did not move forward with any formof investigation—in the end it was left to the lawyers to draw out anexpensive, exhausting civil case. After one year of depositions, filings, briefs and discovery we alljust wanted to move on. Bad blood or not.
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Bryan傲慢的态度决定了他的选择。我的举动是被Grant Roy指引的，那时我深爱着他。他坚强并且忠诚，坚持自己的立场并且打偏Bryan的攻击。我们一起承受着巨额的诉讼费和反诉费，举出Bryan用来诽谤我的引证。Bryan就我年龄的情况，以我实行诈骗和做伪证提出控告。最终，我的证词胜诉了。因为那时我还是未成年，所以（法院）并不认为我应负有偿付责任。FBI也没有继续展开任何形式的调查——最后是由律师们来决定，拟定一起昂贵的，令人疲惫不堪的民事案件。经过整整一年的证词、文件归档、摘要，和当事人必须透露事实真相或有关文件内容等杂事的折磨，我们只想要翻篇重新开始。嫌隙萦心或一笑而过。（经过一整年在证词、文件、声明与调查中的纠缠，无谓是否要将这份敌对之心昭之于众，我们都只不过是想取得一些进展罢了。）

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甜心这篇文章写了好长好多
后面还发表了他自己对这部电影的看法
我慢慢翻译……
@绿泪繁星
@米小皮的悲伤

原文地址：
https://avn.com/business/articles/gay/brent-corrigan-his-life-his-story-in-his-own-words-716301.html
欢迎有能力的甜甜圈们纠正指错！！

Casual conversation online initiated by Harlow lasted for threeto four months. It would lead to a fateful dinner in Las Vegas of January in2007. While at AVN’s Internext Expo that year, Grant and I also agreed to meetwith Bryan Kocis on neutral ground. For several days Bryan, Grant and I satwith a legal mediator to work out a settlement. The noose was loosening and I was breathing easier.
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Harlow主动地在网上跟我闲聊了大概三四个月。这注定了2007年1月份在拉斯维加斯的那次晚餐。那年也正好是AVN举办Internext-Expo【注：Internext-Epo一年举办两次，是成圐人影业相关工作者和媒体的大型商会】的时候，我跟Grant也同时同意站在中间立场跟BryanKocis见面。几天以来，Bryan、Grant和我在法律调停者的帮助下商讨一份双方都满意的和解协议书。缠在我脖子上的绳索仿佛松了一点，我终于能够不那么辛苦地苟延残喘了（如释重负）。

At the convention whilenot in meetings, Grant and I spent time with the other studios, producers andmodels. Collaborative interests abounded. Optimism was in the air.
Harlow and Joe were elusive in Vegas. We met with themtwice—once on the convention floor at AVN and once at Le Cirque. The two camedressed up and treated us to a five-course five-star meal. Nothing seemed outof sorts about our dinner company. They were a very flashy couple and wanted to be seen as sophisticatedand successful. Little did I know it was their lack of understanding andsophistication, and a lack of success, that would lead to their downfall.
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在一些小范围会议和大型集会上，我和Grant花了不少时间在与一些工作室，制片人和模特的协商上，他们中的不少人都表达了伸来橄榄枝的意图。大好前景仿佛近在咫尺。
Harlow和Joe则被人遗忘（？）在维加斯。我们见了他们两次面——一次是在AVN的大型商会上，另一次是在Le Cirque【注：马戏团餐厅】。他们两个人那天盛装出席，请我们吃了一顿非常正统的五星级大餐。这场晚餐似乎没有任何异常的地方。他们是穿着非常华丽的一对，渴望着被别人当作精明世故的成功人士看待。（这一对装扮得相当浮夸，极力展现着自己有多么阅历丰富，功成名就。）那时我完全没有想到正是因为缺乏理解和世故，以及成功经验的不足，竟会导致他们的没落。