昨天晚上本来作文件，结果瞎逛网页搞到好晚，学习任务又没有完成，熬夜久坐，再加上思想的一点波动，梦遗了...... 看住自己的念头!

【故事分享】出自noagain兄戒色日记-从起步到戒手淫五百多日的心路历程
上午在一些门户网站看新闻时，对一些不该看的东西起了流连之心。想到了那个农夫进城的故事：
一个农夫穿了新鞋进城，天刚下过雨，泥泞不大。他懒了懒，以为小心点鞋就脏不了，就没有脱。走了一阵，鞋底就污了，他还是很小心，仔细挑着干了的地方跳着走，鞋帮上一会儿也星星点点沾了泥；再走一会儿，人多了，互相溅着，鞋面上也污了。他就又想，反正已经污了，也不挑路了，也不避污水洼了，不到城门口，新鞋已经湿透，污得成了泥团一般。
说到这些，无疑是“防微杜渐”四个字。
戒色并不是一件独立的事，它是一种生活状态，戒色，正如nogain兄所说的，精神领域实际上出现了一个洞，一个空间。需要在这个空间上填补新的内容，这些内容必须是新的：更深刻、更理性、更圆熟、更智慧。你如果不去填补，那么类似于SY这样的杂念就可能重新回来，那样可能就跌回去了。
前面去参观了二战时期Japanese American的居住地，那几年，附近几个州的JA都集中在那里，航拍的老照片看起来也是很大的一块居住地，现在仅剩零星的几幢房子以留作纪念，周围都是desert。愿这种历史不再重
演。
现在是周六下午了，要加把劲，还剩20个单词，之后要赶快完成心理学课的作业！6月前决不再看门户网站，不上QQ聊。

【每日励志】你可以允许自己堕落一阵，但是不可以从此沉沦，你还有梦，明天总会来的。
网络上的诱惑以及歪理如此之多，一不留神就会陷进去，或是被其影响，所以一定要坚持学习好的、正面的文化和思想，不断提高自己的辨别能力。不知不觉戒色已经20天了，虽然还是有很多没做好的地方，但整个人都感觉有了变化，下一步要开始控制作息时间以及严格执行学习计划，加油！

【每日一句】容得下几个小人,耐得住几桩逆事,过后感到心胸开阔,眉清目秀,有如咀嚼橄榄,虽然当时觉得酸涩,在回味时则满口清凉。
1）今天照了几张自拍，和戒色前比起来甚至有些更差了，原来这段时间为了能更好地自我提升，每天都晚睡早起，结果精气神还是没有上来，上课也时时犯困，从今天开始，早睡早起！
2）突然想起以前看过的一个片子，里面色情、暴力和血腥的东西，当时不在意，但想想现在却颇为反感，这也应当算是自己的进步了吧，加油，学会过滤脑海里的垃圾！
3）今天被前女友刺激了一下，更加坚定了要变得更优秀的决心，虽然知道我不应当在意这些小事，但毕竟修为还没有到那程度，就把这个当作是对自己的激励吧。你那么牛13，给我白眼，那么就让我们看看一年后的结果，我绝对会比她强的！按第一步的计划走，5月底出现一个崭新的自己！！！！
当然，心态还是要摆正，宽容，仁义，永记于心！
4）说话声音有时还是小小的，明明能大声，可就是不自觉地小了，有时腰部还是会有异样，这应该都是肾气不足的原因吧，眼袋也很严重，长痘痘······早睡早起，调整好身体来！
5）说话口音还是特别重，要好好练，把口音改好来；单词一定坚持背；语法要开始做了，再不做就晚了！

【每日一句】既然选择了远方，便只顾风雨兼程。 ——汪国真
昨天10：30睡得，算是这段时间来最早的一天了吧。没有闹闹钟，七点被住家爸爸叫起来，虽然感觉还是有些困，但已经没有前段时间那种头晕的感觉，不过第一节课还是睡着了·······我想应该是因为之前都睡得太晚了，身体需要调整，以后要坚持早睡早起，晚睡等于慢性自杀，养足精神才能更好地学习和锻炼。好多东西要去练的，但是自己不好好把握时间，篮球、跑步、吉他什么的一定要重新抓起来！
离本阶段计划结束还有101天，fighting！

【每日分享】蝴蝶之所以令人感动，是它经过几度变身，从毛毛的黑，蜕变成柔软的绿，再结化成坚强的蛹，最后，凝结成一身的美，绕过我们的身边，横过我们的窗前，飞过我们的青山和蓝天！我愿学习蝴蝶，一再的蜕变，一再的祝愿，既不思虑，也不彷徨；既不回顾，也不忧伤。
取自http://tieba.baidu.com/p/2955302229?fr=ala0&pstaala=2
today is valentine's day,although I don't have valentine, wish each pair of lovers will be happy.
ex-girlfriend still have some influence on me, every time I met her, I would feel wierd. Anyways, next year I still have to in the same class with her, I should have a good attitude.
the basketball boys did a great job tonight and they also let me know the ditance between me and them I failed last tryout, that's because I'm still not good enough, I must work hard to improve my basketball skill, so that I can play the game at next year. My goal is varsity! I know that's hard, but I will try my best!

【daily encouragement】“There are moments when troubles enter our lives and we can do nothing to avoid them.
But they are there for a reason. Only when we have overcome them will we understand why they were there.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Fifth Mountain
Fighting! I'm not a loser! The top universities in America, here I come !
it is only 99 days that are left for my first plan.

【daily encouragement】“Our chief want is someone who will inspire us to be what we know we could be.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson
Generally, we always want others inspire us, just like many friends in here. They like to post something to ask others encourage him, and except that will help him to abstain the masturbation. However, that's your own business, when you really realize what you r doing, you certainly will give it up.
I am the type of people who don't want to admit that i'm inferior to others. someone else can do it, why I can't? I even lost to the boys who are two years younger than me in the basketball tryouts! My ex-girlfriend got a 110 something in her toefl but I still haven't get ready to do it. I can play guitar and I know how to break dance. I already learn them more than 3 years, but still not good!
I still have a lot need to work on but I can feel everything is turn better! Come on buddy! You can seize everything you ever wanted as long as you truly believe youeself!
从戒色开始，改变我整个生存状态，改变自己！
永远相信，明天一定会更好的！
it is only 98 days that are left for my first plan.

【daily encouragement】you should often ask yourself：today， are you still full of passion?
Are you still have a strong fighting will? Are you still believe everything will be better at tomorrow?
I feel pretty good right now. Today, I did bench press, sit up and jog. Although I can't go back China, I want to use another way to celebrate it: give my classmates a presentation about Chinese New Year!
I need strictly fulfill my plan,indeed!
sometimes still feel a little dizzy when I suddenly facing the light, so don't forget go to bed early!
it is only 97 days that are left for my first plan.

【daily encouragement】I attribute my success to this: I never gave or took any excuse.
–Florence Nightingale
选这句话有些突兀，但今天一件小事没有做好，确实应当加以注意：吃完糖后看到垃圾桶没有垃圾袋，就把糖纸留在了桌子上，而垃圾袋就在垃圾桶边上的柜子里，为什么不能自己装个呢？然后我找借口，打乱话。
对于新年，有种不可名状的情绪，不知是无奈还是什么。既然现状无法改变，那就坚定信念，相信明天吧。
it is only 96 days that are left for my first plan.

【个人想法】新年愿望：我的家人和朋友都能健康每一天！新年新气象，在这新的一年里愿自己能有大幅度进步，无论是为人处事还是学习爱好。
今天也是戒色的第二个月，我会继续坚定地沿着戒色、修身、养性、全面提升自我的道路前行，调整自己的虚荣心、猜疑心、惰性等，改掉晚睡、拖延和胡思乱想的毛病，坚持锻炼身体，包括每日睡前50个固肾功，经常做卧虎撑、铁板桥和站桩，坚持每日背单词和做托福或sat的题目（这一项之前一个月没有做好），学习优秀的文化，提高自己的思想水平，增强思维能力，多助人，懂得感恩，多给父母和爷爷打电话，做一个大写的人。
It is only 93 days that are left for my first plan.

【daily encouragement】You have come this far, don't give up now.

In my online class, I didn't study hard and take it seriously, so that even didn't finish my test and
assignments but watch TV show and online fiction the whole weekend. I wanted to leave those assignments until Sunday night, then do it. Yesterday evening, when I am doing the assignments, Denis turn the WiFi off. I didn't work and I haven't finished my work yet. I konw, he is right. This is not the first time I do like this, last uunit, and when I in China, I also had a lot of times are wasting.I will not let this situation happen again. 真的很庆幸能意识到自己这一缺点，加油，为了更好的明天努力，之前看小说和电视剧，真的是没管住自己，计划也一个星期没有去好好执行了，要重新开始加油了，把早睡早起把精力养好，不要忘了自己的目标！再也不把事情拖到最后做了！
It is only 90 days that are left for my first plan.

【daily encouragement】All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring
Today, I get my new phone, 6 plus. Very happy, but I waste a lot of time to adjust it. until now, 21:22!!!
Brace yourself! you don't have too much time left!
It is only 89 days that are left for my first plan.

昨天拿到了新手机，浪费了一下午去折腾。晚上10点，本应睡觉，结果又拿起了网络小说来看。 刚刚写完上面那几句，心里又产生了想看小说的强烈念想……