Thank You Pain
So lowly criminal
lease tell me how do you plead?
Now honorable judges ladies gentlemen of the jury.please allow me to present my case
Ha What case can you possibly present to rip a man from his family faith and friends? Defense?
Listen before you convict you see I never did intend to ruin anything!
Intent is a guilty conscience's white flag against pride
so I find you guilty of the crimes.
I know although I don't believe it's not only my afterlife I bereave.
Appeals will be denied!
The line of duty calls for enforcement of laws
so you're our property now. Intelligence has failed you somehow.
Oh what a shame you play this game!
Through senses, what can we explain?
Not joy, not guilt, not pain. Is love the same?
This senseless argument in vain erodes my sense of shame.
Who's to blame?
Thank you, Pain! God bless Suffering!
Thank you, Pain!
For preventing me from returning to the source again.
So it shall be! Now do you see the error of your ways?
Of Rats and Men you speak, standing up tall but you are weak.
A smiling thief. We are all murderers, you see,
but you let taboo human chemistry blind your needs.
Live is greed! Logic won't concede.
Think about the statistics you feed.
Think before you plead
Through senses, what can we explain?
Not joy not fear not pain. Is love the same?
This reckless argument in vain erodes my sense of shame.
Who's to blame?
Thank you, Pain! God bless Suffering!
Thank you, Pain! For preventing me from returning to the source again.


And Their Eulogies Sang Me To Sleep
ShareAll I heard was the sound of fish who'd drowned.
All I saw was the inside of my eyelids.
All I said fell short of reaching open ears.
Words floating, clouding the view...
'See no, hear no, speak no evil' leaves you deaf, dumb and blind,
Because the bad is all you'll find.
A deeply heart-felt goodbye to the part of me that died
When I decided to put others before me,
Yes, my heart fell asleep - boredom and fatigue.
I always said I wanted to die smiling,
To pretend I'm at peace.
Now from my corpse beams a frigid, blank grin
And once hopeful eyes are sunken in.
Like a lullaby to the cradle is the eulogy to the casket.
All my flaws swept under the table
To grieve the porcelain doll that was me.
Their solemn songs sang me to sleep as my body escaped me.
uch a shameful masquerade!
Fleeting, frozen minutes on display.
Why is evolution such a shameful thing to say?
Can you feel your bodily decay?
Because I can sure as hell feel my brain going blank.
If my body betrays me, there's pollution to thank.
This condition infects my cells like it controls my mind.
Internal army, defend me behind enemy lines!
Fragile vehicle of mine! Don't abandon me yet!
There is so much to live for that we so easily forget.
Fascination with the fear... The concept escapes me.
All encompassing fate...
How it wrenches our hearts, torments our souls
And sings us all to sleep to an eternal keep,
No matter what beliefs, it sweetly sings us all...


Birds Elope With The Sun
Air like water, water like stone, birds elopes with the sun.
A velvet quietus furtively draped over ears
Quartz underfoot and crystalline opal tears
Welcoming webs of gasping despair
Nival anphora textures the air
Anamnesis waltzes through...
The windows, shut tight, and the fires are fueled...
Reminding naÏveté of it's magnitude's inferiority.
Skyward stretching arms become thin and weak.
Bony fingers comb the clouds then curl into fists, admitting defeat.
Blood concedes to gravity's pull, leaving hollow skeletons all erect, perforating the skyline -- an impenetrable cage... like skin drawn tight, and canvas cracked with age.
Escapist flights and lengthy nights as some succumb and slumber awakes...
Faces count minutes 'til noon -- solar ghosts come kiss the moon goodnight -- grey memories for now.
A thousand families, down, will fall.
Nival tears bury them all!
Like absconding tides, birds elope with the sun.
A barren desert soaked in bleach
A sickly pallor and opal touch
Hallucinating, shattered glass falls as the atmosphere cracked and we are invaded by emptiness black.
The brain keeps the body company.
The continent is a new born, trying to breathe.
Accepting his fate and falling asleep, the child is a woman, resting in peace.
Accepting the sleep as a blackness forcing it's way in and pushing air out through heavy lungs...
And heavy are the clouds that reach so deep and smother the land in a heavy shroud.
Eyes press closed and words are now visible.
The sky is an eggshell waiting to hatch.
The ground is the air, the wind, the trees, the Earth, the water, the fire...
Sculptors working the clay, carving angels and gargoyles, and columns as pixies dance to appease the leaves.
Faces that once turned to catch the light, frown and turn desperately down towards darkness.
Float to the stiff, grey Earth.


Born Dead, Buried Alive
The bloodline traces back to the past from
Whence the first real Christians came. The
Racist procreation remains in every God-damned
Rally, riot and rage. Eternal damnation divided by
Nation, fighting for land, language and souls. A
Kick to the face of pride... leave hypnotic control
Behind, how is it that even now, to this day,
This potion we're born with still runs through
Our veins?
Brainwash young minds - They will learn what
You teach; practice what you preach. Brainwash
Young minds - breed corruption.
Didn't you expect when you built your
Empire on pillars of cadavers (genocide yields power -
You built your empire on murder) that it would
Corrode with time?
Say, how do you justify systematic eradication
Of the diversity, the foundation, of all humanity?
Say how do you justify putting words in my
Mouth, blood on my hands, hate in my heart?
Say how do you justify putting words in my
Mouth, blood on my hands, hate in my heart?
Say how do you justify?
The bloodline traces back to the past from
Whence the first real Christians came. The
Racist procreation remains in every God-damned
Rally, riot and rage. Eternal damnation divided by
Nation, fighting for land, language and souls. A
Kick to the face of pride...
An insult to all those who've died
To all those who've died
To all those who've died
Brainwash young minds - They will learn what
You teach; practice what you preach. Brainwash
Young minds - breed corruption.
Didn't you expect when you built your
Empire on pillars of cadavers (genocide yields power -
You built your empire on murder) that it would
Corrode with time? Say, how do you justify?
I lock eyes with the black monolith
Towering over me.
I lock eyes with the black monolith
In my reflection I see our
Name printed far too many times, over and over
Again. You cannot know the warm toveh of the
Vengeance that calls without the sting of the
Betrayal that afflicts us all.
You cannot know the warm toveh of the
Vengeance that calls without the sting of the
Betrayal that afflicts us all


Business Suits And Combat Boots
Does history guide you, or do you set out to change it?
Breach not broken
**** your...
Skinned- alive designer wear
Fashion shades and salon hair
Heels to help where nature failed
Artificial teeth and nails
The wasp's nest expands
So clap your hands! It's her!
The one black woman who's success you don't credit to Affirmative Action
The way of the future is corporate sponsors raising your kids
Maternal love is nothing compared to what $7 gives
Put in, suck out plastic body parts
It's the ever-growing industry of cosmetic arts!
Bombarded with the idealized shots, dysmorphic, self-destructive plots
Physical flaws are a mental blank
So pay your surgeons
It’s your parents you should thank
These eyes are blind to several hundred left behind
(Lest we forget again)
But the border is breached but not broken
Who tries to find the several hundred left behind,
When the border is breached but not broken?
Go-existing in a twisted society
Where youth is a crime and wasteful sweat-shops expenditures are how luxury is defined
Now the KKK has found a new masquerade
**** your self-proclaimed supremacy
You hide your face and your shame!
Identify right and wrong when all fact is merely opinion
You cannot know the sweetness of victory without first dwelling in the agony of defeat


Chlorpromazine
ShareI awoke to a complex chemistry.
So, I went to a neuro-surgeon inquisitively to see what she could see.
But she knows only what she's taught so I turned to a Tree to see what he thought.
And he asked: "When does three equal plus one?"
The answer is Birth -- Life's creation.
Then suddenly flames rushed past.
Green turned to black, and life turned to ash.
Because I believe in everything, I'm convinced of nothing.
United we ran -- divided we crawl.
It just takes a common enemy to make a friend.
Marry hope and fear, invent a colour.
And so, it's gone as quickly as it came.
Raging tides galloped forth to extinguish the flames, and, thus, was born in a cloud above.
But all else was gone, and one plus one equaled one.
In harmony with gravity always bringing everything down.
Tear out your mother tongue chlorpromazine incursion -- the rights of the voiceless will be revealed.
Flesh is food and bone is stone.
A grey-matter cause for inner demons' microphones.
Fields of shells that lurk in murky waters.
A bed of nails for less traumatic slumber.
Logic's tough but brains are sweet, we've served our sup for the demons to feed.
Projected self loathsome apathy redefines reality.
Paranoid self-victimization in a cage of skin; rage and intimidation lack of control bring a once bright life to stone and ice.


Forget Tomorrow
Fall into flames
All that remains of me is a stepped
On, thrown out piece of your enemy. All that remains
Of me is about to hit the ground.
When you begin to deny all of your
Past lives... When you begin to deny that you can't
Defend your lies...
In total, In control
Yet thrown overboard get pulled below...
Wait patiently
As it sorrounds me. In vitro
Go home... go... set me free
The end is only a bloodloss, cointoss tragedy.
Blinded-eyed guilty plea.
So caught up in here and now. Walk on, walk
On. Lie expectancy goies down... corruption. The
Weakest mind will wear the crown because we all
Need protection. Escape is a dangerous art -
Addiction is the easy part. (Please don't let
Me fall into flames...)
Night falls and darkness rises deep inside
His skin. Blood, sweat and tears will soon pay
For this sin.
In total In control
Yet thrown overboard get pulled below...
Wait patiently
As it sorrounds me. Walks towards home, thinks
He's alone... Wait and you'll see - the frust
Glows in his eyes. Explanation is only a disguise
For Death's now enterprise. Infiltration...
Self-destruction... Felt so lonely, what a
Tragedy


Globus Hystericus
ShareWhat says the Tree to his friends the Rocks?
When he lives and breathes they sit and mock?
And he grows strong, for centuries long, but one he dies and begins to rot.
"We will last intact this way! And you my friend, will soon decay!"
"But I can breathe -- am commensal; the shade, the fruits, the nests on bough.
And if with this, my time finite, I'm glad to have spent it doing right."
But Rocks prefer to simply sit.
To gain none, lost none, just exist.
But nary should an ocean rise, they'd become sand and disappear with the tides.
When trees ignite a cyclical life, from plant to animal to Earth and back; whom, even when their roots are ploughed, have left exponential impact.
And so, the greedy human kind, to conquer trees tall, mountains high, erects gigantic splinters of steel that shame forests, make mountains to kneel.
And progress spreads like moss on a stone.
Evolution dictates that men are prone to outdo those that came before.
"You see? We'll last forever more!"
We improve what nature made.
We'll challenge mountains, transplant lakes.
There is no confirmed master plan.
We do it just because we can.
But foolish is the one who complacently thinks himself King because when Time erodes the past what remains are Nature's things.
Quite Shakespearean duals, those between parent and offspring are!
As Chronos devours his Son, Gaia to mankind so starts.
Metal rusts, cement crumbles.
To err is human, not divine.
Prayers are so intently mumbled when proud man is forces to decline.
Steel, concrete, technology may stand intact for centuries, but faces with wind or flood or quake, like toys will crumble, bend and break.
I say with actions what you do with words.
For we're the moss; the Earth -- the stone, so let us do as did the Tree.
For silence will long be ignored, and action recognized quickly.
We won't outlive our generation but our impact surely will.
This -- the Rocks' humiliation -- when they witness we are still alive in what we've left for others, like Nature gives, so selflessly.
So pay respect to out true Mother and take your rank amongst the Trees.

Martyr Art
ShareAwaken, as from a tormented sleep with eyes anxiously looking to creep beyond this twisted dementia displayed on the walls.
Mysterious mindsets and ink-droplets fall.
Muses take flight in an all out war.
Shall I catch it with open hand?
Or let it fall and start again?
Such words burn the skin.
So, enter stage right, mic in hand.
Before the micro-cosm, stand.
Display my efforts, after all, don't expect them recognized.
Hourly torture, chaos ignite!
Beauty and art give a sign of life.
But, as Balzac and Hardy profess, the martyr will burn for her canvas.
Elusive horizon, I'm not a threat.
You see, I'm for some reason always on trial.
Object of destination -- always on trial.
O, Solitude!
With thee I dwell!
With thee I dwell is our assiduous, gated hell.
Trivial -- this mind and spirit world.
You can't compare their worth to what is real.
At it's best, all critics must confess, this work can outlive death -- so what is real?
Because I can't describe half the shit I feel inside your crimes.
Targeted intent eviscerating innocence.
I swear I'm not a threat.
Put down your defense.
All I can do is watch in awe... feet raking the sand, hands bound by molten ire.
As the broad guillotine blade sinks into the horizon, streams of burning gold burst forth from ultramarine expansive veins and reach towards me, lending heat to the air, as the Earth is sliced in half and the dividing line approaches.
For every stage turned wonderland, for every sound turned song, for every song turned experience, for every hour turned long.
Accablées de misère en décembre, les muses se baignent en flammes.
Noyées dans l'ombre elles disparaissent, attendant le divin pientre de l'Univers, le Soliel


Memento Mori
ShareCan't you see how far I've bent?
Fuel abuse at my expense
The limbs that crawl up silken threads
And swift entomb the not quite dead
That sickening numbness hindsight hides
Like spiders creeps out from inside
Remember, simply don't pretend
Both good and bad will come to end
[Chorus]
How love's blindfold wears so thin
The world's too strange when seen without
The arrow's head plunged so far in
My body taught me just how to live on without
You tore away a part of my body
So virgin pure
You fed off blood from my soul
No longer will your silhouette haunt me
Reject obsession
Let it burn in the cold
Writhing, wriggling free
From all the superficial constraints
But that sickening numbness hindsight hides
Like spiders creeps out from inside
[Chorus]
Your fingers burn their prints on my skin
But greedy hands can't grope their way into my mind
No more will your venom reach my awe-glazed eyes
(Permanent scars)
Though my last hope was strangled
Although you've burned me
That corpse constantly shadowing my every move
With each step I take pavement grinds my flesh away
The precious static rest beneath my slumber holds me up
Though persuasion pulls me down


Rise And Fall
This human incompetence and it's consequence,
Sub-human intolerance hitting home. This stupid, old
Prejudice and it's consequence; civilian rights are
Not right for ALL deserve rights, large and
Small.
Rise and Fall... each breath could be
The last-chances have all come and passed.
Why can't we just shake the urge to end
Everything? Property lines slise through the
Earth. The sadden urge to control our surroundings;
Money and time now define the WORTHless we rise and we fall.
Rise and Fall... each breath could be
The last-chances have all come and passed.
Fighting for land to own... and man will
Always find reasons for war. Fighting wars yields
Bitter rewards so let's contemplate what to fight
For.
From the oceans we rise... to the ashes
We fall. All for one... not one for all.
Where do we go when we no longer
Exist? Apologies are useless, they're nothing,
They're important. To savour the taste of youth
And sweet control... Hierarchal classes
Split the masses - pray your ranking's high.
Off - white, low - life, nuisance in a flawless
Life, ground underfoot like ashes. The world's
A ****ing gas chamber.
Populations rise and fall


Serendipity
Stillborn pride - let me hide!
Once more I've stepped across the line,
Repeating to myself that everything is fine.
Once more I'm shipwrecked far from shore.
This time the war and blood and gore are
Mine. Approaching the end, thinking it's all
Pretend. Then - clarity, so close to me. Although
I knew I killed me to I came back to life.
The key is flexibility. Guard your strenghts
ANd drown the rest: out of mind, out of sight.
The chains on my wings... still tight but
Loosening. The age of wondering led me to a
Place never revisited again.
Stillborn pride - Spare my mind!
Don't regret all of your past - you can't
Change. Tears dry but they're never your last -
That won't change. The first stone has just
Been cast - Show restraing.
You can't take all my apathy.
You can't take such a tragedy.
You can't brake all my fallacies.
Let serendipity.
Okay - so things don't always go your
Way. We may see things for what they
Are someday.
So things don't always go your
Way. See things for what they
Are today


Take A Bow
SharePowerless, depressed
I try to conceal all the wreckage inside
But they are denied the basic rights
Hand-delivered to all of mankind
[Bridge]
My patience tried
Forgiveness died
My hands are tied
Let go
All of the scars built up the walls
Life drifting far below
[Chorus]
Instinct can't save you now
Man stand up, take a bow
The sun always hides behind the clouds, always
Tell me when did we lose our way
Why is the whole world our prey
Inhumane is the trend nowadays
How much more can they pay
In the end
How blind we've been to let destructive forces fly
Deaf ears hear them, closed hands feel them
Empathy begins when all this ends
End all innocent lives right now
For we bring nothing and claim the crown