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When I heard of that XX app will be taken down from the app down I just reinstalled it immediately with no strong reason. Well, then I couldn’t help myself from using it. After swiping hundreds of profile cards an image of a man holding his camera caught my eyes. I read his info and checked some of his posts and pressed the like button. Glad to find out we mutually matched with each other. Naturally we started to chat for 3 to 4 hours until the late midnight. It’s very dramatic that he had lots of similarities with AZ. We even used to accommodate in the same hotel in Shanghai. And we shared several intimate info of the past life. BTW, his voice and the tone he spoke was very gentle. I thought maybe we could be good friends since we could understand each other which was rare in that app. However he soon unmatched and deleted me without saying goodbye. I had to admit that I felt disappointed about losing connection with him even though I totally understand why he did this.
Most users on that app are calling for booty calls. But I use it as a secret place to post some text and pictures because no one knows me there. He just told me he was using it for the same reason. And he was indeed a very extraordinary person. Just as Nico said I was easily obsessed with such kind of person. And she warned me of not to trust men on this app. It is hard for me to keep super rational. But I will try my best to be calm.
What I have learned from this quick online encounter is as following. First, do not get too excited when finding someone is your type because that may not be true. Only if the two of us having communicated with each other smoothly and happily more than one week could I make sure that we might be friends. Second, it is more important to experience and explore the world in reality not on Internet. Third, I have to speed up my pace of losing weight. Being pretty and smart will always offer lasting confidence and motivation. Last, don’t talk with online users in the midnight because if there’s chance that you two become friends then you will get used to chatting at late night which just make myself drawn into the vicious cycle of sleeping late.
Haven’t been here for a while. It just surprised me a little bit that I mentioned Bob at the last post. Totally forgot that. Well I tried something I never did before and it was bold and wild. It was fun at that moment. I was sober I knew exactly what was happening and I won’t regret. However, I found myself easily to require more emotional attention. It was not because I fell in love with him but I thought that things should be different when we were more intimate. Actually it’s a wrong idea. It’s was not a big deal and I should be cool as I wish. Keep it simple and utilitarian.
