how should i exist in this world? what's value about my life?

after so many setbacks and failures ,i began to doubt about the meaning of my life.
i am not smart ,i.am not clever,i feel hungry and thirsty for success and money,but difficult to get!
really difficult for me to reach anything or achieve anything.

all the beautiful thing are not distributed fairly,including money,women,power,social stadus.
so many people they can live a very luxury life.and their lavish life style really left a strong impression on me. i am a human ,i have the normal desire for everything attractive,butfor me, it is a scenery in the air .

i strive ,i work hard ,i fight,but it seems even far away from my life.
i doubt about my life,why littered me on to this world but without protecting.
i am human being,so l struggle so hard but without rewarding. why so many people they can gratify everything they want and satisfy every of their caprice.but for me even difficult to grab a decent job?

so many kind people they comforted me and said :your effort will pay off in the long run,you should stick to the end,hardwork with right method,fight ,fight until succeed.
that kind of rhetoric is easy,who knows how long it will take, but for poor man ,this is the only way for you to change your life.
in the real life there are many things you should balance,you should juggling the spare time for study and maintain the stable income to support your daily life. you should overcome so many trifling things and difficulties.

frankly speaking i find it is extremely difficult to reverse the life situations.
just like old sayings "poor family raise a notable man" is not true in this era.
you already lag behind at the starting point.

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i don't think it is right that i study and improve myself occupying the whole day but my wife go to work and support my family. it is not right,i feel guilty about this.
i must kill the way out of this mess and reverse the situation .
to compensate my wife,i must succeed and make her proud of me!
i must work hard,i must succeed!