never will i forget the dragging to the arena, running through the red crowds, screaming at the arena entrance, waiting for the delayed and the long goodbye. i felt fearless.
it keeps haunting me recently, i remember all of those all too well. i was expecting that we will creat another best memories this November. i love you, but somehow, it dosen't feel the same. Maybe i ask for too much, but i really want to share the moments with you, the one who enjoy sharing with me in the same way.
i feel like i'm a total loser.
i panick.
maybe i shouldn't have asked you the silly question, which makes me look like a drama queen.
for the first time, i knew it may bring up a fight but i still couldn't stop myself.
everytime i look back to May 30th, 2014, my eyes will be flooded by tears.(another dramatic scene BTW)
i love you so much, i'm so afraid of losing you, but that's why i have to ask you the question too.
the last thing i want is that, i love you with all my heart while you just want to continue for not hunting me.
I would rather it ends immediately if that's ture.
don't wanna push on you, take your time.
There are far far better things ahead than any we leave behind.

MISS YOU BOSSY STEFAN BTW!