我想我会慢慢听完，直到时间褪色。

Orchid
Me and my helmet
such an un-conventional kid
All intense and kinetic
at best tolerated from afar
Not yet arrested
and by that I mean betrothed
Though a start I am newly courted
I've just not been trusted with alters
I'm a sweet piece of work
well intentioned yet disturbed
Wrongly label-ed and under-fed
treated like a rose as an orchid
My friends as they weigh in
get understandably protective
They have a hard time being objective
So inside we cancel each other out
I'm a sweet piece of work
well intentioned and unloved
Unlabeled and misunderstood
treated like a rose as an orchid
You've brought water to me
making sure my bloom rebounds
You know best of what
my special care allows
So I've lived in my blind spot
Thought myself usual when I'm not
And your garden is a nice spot
As long as it is
brave and where you are
For this sweet piece of work
high maintenance and deserted
I've been different and deserving
treated like a rose as an orchid
Sweet piece of work overwhelmed un-observed
I've been bowed down to
but so misread
Treated like a rose as an orchid
http://www.xiami.com/song/2569182

Limbo No More
My house, my role
My friends, my man
My devotion to god
All the more feels indefinite
Nothing's been clear
Nothing's been in
Nothing's felt true
And I've never had both feet in
Nothing's belonged
Nothing's been yes
Nowhere's been home
And I'm ready to be limbo no more
My taste, my peers
My identity, my affiliation
All the more feels indefinite
Nothing's been clear
Nothing's been in
Nothing's felt true
And I've never had both feet in
Nothing's belonged
Nothing's been yes
Nowhere's been home
And I'm ready to be limbo no more
I sit with filled frames
And my books and my dogs at my feet
My friends by my side
My past in a heap
Thrown out most of my things
Only kept what I need to carve
Something consistent and notably me
Tattoo on my skin
My teacher's in heart
My house is a home
Something at last I can feel a part of
Sense of myself
My purpose is clear
My roots in the ground
Something at last I can feel a part of
Something aligned
To finally commit
Somewhere I belong
'Cause I'm ready to be limbo no more
My wisdom applied
A firm foundation
A vow to myself
'Cause I'm ready to be limbo no more
My house, my role
My friends, my man
My devotion to god
All the more feels indefinite
http://www.xiami.com/song/2569185

Underneath
look at us break our bonds in this kitchen
look at us rallying all our defenses
look at us waging war in our bedroom
look at us jumping ship in our dialogues
there is no difference
in what we're doing in here
that doesn't show up as big as it does out there
so why spend all our time undressing our bandages
when we've the ultimate key to the cause
right here all underneath.
look at us form our cliques in our sandbox
look at us being cruel kids with both our hearts blocked
look at us turn away from all the rough spots
look at dictatorship on my own block
there is no difference
in what we're doing in here
that doesn't show up as big as it does out there
so why spend all our time undressing our bandages
when we've the ultimate key to the cause
right here all underneath.
how i've spun my wheels
with carts before my horse
and shine on the outside springs from gloom
spotlight on these seeds of simpler reasons
and score bourne into corn, stretching my limit
there is no difference
in what we're doing in here
that doesn't show up as big as it does out there
so why spend all our time undressing our bandages
when we've the ultimate key to the cause
right here all underneath.
http://www.xiami.com/song/2096561

Not as we
Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain
Unsure unconvincing
This faint and shaky hour
Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
I'm barely making sense for now
I'm faking it I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as I
And not as we
Gun shy and quivering
Timid without a hand
Feign brave with steel intent
Little and hardly here
With not much making sense just yet
I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it
Eyes wet toward
Wide open frayed
If God's taking bets
I pray He wants to lose
I'm barely making sense just yet
From scratch begin again but this time I as I
And not as we
http://www.xiami.com/song/2096564

Empathy
There are so many parts that I have hidden and denied and lost
There are so many ways that I have cut off my nose to spite my face
There are so many colors that I still try to hide while I paint
And there are so many tunes that I secretly sing as I wait
You come along and invite these parts out of hiding
This invitation is the one that I've stopped fighting
Thank you for seeing me
I feel so less lonely
Thank you for getting me
I'm healed by your empathy
Oh this intimacy
There were so many times, I thought I'd die not being truly known
There've been so many moments forever lonely in my vocation
You come along and celebrate each feeling
And there you are all honor and inquiring
Thank you for seeing me
I feel so less lonely
Thank you for getting me
I'm healed by your empathy
Oh this intimacy
There was a day where the trust that was being asked of me
Required too much you see
To accept your generosity
And to know myself enough to let you help me
Thank you for seeing me
I feel so less lonely
Thank you for getting me
I'm healed by your empathy
Oh this intimacy
http://www.xiami.com/song/1771037776

Guardian
You, you who has smiled when you’re in pain
You who has soldiered through the profane
They were distracted and shut down
So why, why would you talk to me at all
Such words were dishonorable and in vain
Their promise as solid as a fog
And where was your watchman then
I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian
I’ll be your warrior of care your first warden
I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand
The greatest honor of all, as your guardian
You, you in the chaos feigning sane
You who has pushed beyond what’s humane
Them as the ghostly tumbleweed
And where was your watchman then
I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian
I’ll be your warrior of care your first warden
I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand
The greatest honor of all, as your guardian
Now no more smiling mid crestfall
No more managing unmanageables
No more holding still in the hailstorm
Now enter your watchwoman
I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian
I’ll be your warrior of care your first warden
I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand
The greatest honor of all, as your guardian
http://www.xiami.com/song/1771037772

You Oughta Know
I want you to know, that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother
Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, til you died
But you're still alive
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you **** her
Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, til you died
But you're still alive
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
Cause the joke that you laid on the bed that was me
And I'm not gonna fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And every time I scratch my nails
down someone else's back
I hope you feel it...well can you feel it
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
http://www.xiami.com/song/1216443

Utopia
Utopia
we'd gather around all in a room fasten our belts engage in dialogue
we'd all slow down rest without guilt not lie without fear disagree sans judgment
we would stay and respond and expand and include and allow and forgive and enjoy and evolve and discern and inquire and accept and admit and divulge and open and reach out and speak up
This is utopia this is my utopia
This is my ideal my end in sight
Utopia this is my utopia
This is my nirvana
My ultimate
we'd open our arms we'd all jump in we'd all coast down into safety nets
we would share and listen and support and welcome be propelled by passion not invest in outcomes we would breathe and be charmed and amused by difference be gentle and make room for every emotion
(Refrain)
we'd provide forums we'd all speak out we'd all be heard we'd all feel seen
we'd rise post-obstacle more defined more grateful we would heal be humbled and be unstoppable we'd hold close and let go and know when to do which we'd release and disarm and stand up and feel safe
http://www.xiami.com/song/1216953

On the Tequila
Bring on the tequila, oh
On fire on tequila, oh
My friends and I meet hours before
We make some home made pizza
We do some funny bits back and forth
My knees buckle I laugh so hard
We might end three sheets to wind
And who knows where we'll wind up
All I know is there’s a car waiting
And we’ll figure that out after
I have to keep my eye
On my old friend from high school
We’ve known each other for the longest time
She has trouble with her dance so to speak
She can hoist a really good kick
In the butt when she's excited
She doesn’t do it so much anymore
'Cuz we’re all on to her
Bring on the tequila, oh
On fire on tequila, oh
Mostest most on tequila, oh
Bestest friends on tequila, oh
Then there’s my other pretty friend from high school
The predator in me is put to shame by the predator in her
And now I've reeled it in
It’ll be interesting to see how much she’s done as well
Then there’s my friend from Chicago
God do I love all people from Chicago
All ready to light up the barbecue
And be harping on debauchery
Bring on the tequila, oh
On fire on tequila, oh
Mostest most on tequila, oh
Bestest friends on tequila, oh
Then there’s my Canadian friend
What a fabulous mom she’s become
She’s been tortured in this sense
For the last many of months for obvious reasons
She was like "Hey, where was this part of you
When I wasn’t pregnant"
I laughed and did a shot in her honor
As I conversed with her belly
Bring on the tequila, oh
On fire on tequila, oh
Mostest most on tequila, oh
Bestest friends on tequila, oh
Then there’s my Cupid friend
She sure knows how to dress that one
She’s a wise and worldly girl
But you gotta watch that medication
My favorite beverage is taken
To a whole other level on it
I’m not worried about it
Or I’ll coast around the room
While I trust she’ll temper
My brother came to visit me
And now he’s used to hanging with me and cracking up
But he had no idea about my built up tolerance
No idea about how manipulative I’ve become
I would surreptitiously put it in front of him
Without him asking
In a pretty little shot glass
His smirk and cackle would only egg me on
Bring on the tequila, oh
On fire on tequila, oh
Mostest most on tequila, oh
Bestest friends on tequila, oh
http://www.xiami.com/song/2569186